Faith, Life Coaching, Relationships

Do I Belong In This Space?

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Here lately, I have gradually pulled away from posting videos and digital content on the web and social media or even viewing content that is posted by others. My reason for doing so is because I had to do an evaluation on my heart. I needed to know the real reason why I produce content or hangout on social media.

I had to first check to see if my ego was overpowering my heart. I have been creating social media content for almost nine years now. When I started I was one of few people in the video content space in my genre and was picking up momentum. Unfortunately, I had to depart from that to care for some critically important matters. When I returned to social media, people were blowing up left and right. I would see people doing Facebook Live, Periscope, Instagram Live, and Snapchat (which I still don’t do). I was thinking about how much of an impact I would have had, if these tools were available when I first began putting content on social media. The biggest kicker is that when I returned there was a hashtag that I feel I was responsible for making popular 8 years ago and there are very few people in the media world (social and otherwise) who don’t use it.

With all of that in front of me, I had to ask, “Am I trying to prove that I can be as widely accepted in these spaces as others? Do I have something that I am trying to prove to myself or anyone else? If so, what difference would it make?”

The next thing I had to check was whether or not fame-thirst was overtaking my heart. People are born with a desire to be great until either they are humbled or someone suffocates their flame for greatness. Greatness is (or should be) an opportunity to allow Christ to shine and get the glory out of our lives. Fame on the other hand is something altogether different.

Fame brings you into a place of self-lauding and self-aggrandizing that people gravitate to because they are attracted to the dark-shine of it. The eye is fascinated by black shine or iridescence. It illuminates and accentuates to the extent that we are drawn to the beauty of what it adorns while ignoring the flaws within it.

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That is the same with fame. It opens doors and has perks beyond what the imagination can fathom. However, it hides detrimental flaws so well that the person absorbing the fame doesn’t even realize that those very flaws are about to impale them in their gut.

I had to ask, “Are there issues and flaws in your life that you are trying to hide while presenting yourself as this phenomenal being with answers to fix everyone else? Are you desiring doors and stages to be celebrated in and upon to make you feel better about those very flaws you may be looking to hide? If so, what would be the end result?”

The final thing I had to evaluate was whether or not posting on social media was even part of my purpose. If I am truly not being egotistical, if I am truthfully not trying to make a name for myself, do I even belong in this space? Though I didn’t have an answer yet, this question led to countless others that I needed to answer. The most important being, “Why were you created, Kaderick?”

If we try to operate in anything other than what we were created for, God is not in it. Regardless to how much people celebrate us or how much pleasure we get out of it, God only meets us in the place of our purpose. If we are not operating in the place where God meets us, it is inevitable that we will encounter the self-propagating antithesis of God: Satan.

Remember the earlier illustration of dark iridescence? Satan is the master of it. He is an illusionist, who would love nothing more than to lure the believer of Jesus Christ into a playground of seeming success, only to snare him or her into a world of deception. His greatest tactic is to bring the believer to a major platform with such thrust and impact that they forget about the vulnerabilities, open wounds and unresolved issues in their heart; only to later expose them as a broken and degenerate fraud. All of this in an effort to break the hearts of strong believers, confuse new believers and deter non-believers.

I had to ask myself, “Are you being drawn into something that would celebrate you but stir up your iniquity? Are you operating in an illusion of effectiveness, or are you really being effective?” And lastly, “Is God meeting you in this space?”

My conclusion to ALL of the questions above was so shocking and overwhelming to the extent that I could look behind me and see that social media took more from me than it gave to me. Albeit, most of what it took, I willingly gave. However, when I gave it, it was due to the fact, that God wasn’t in this space with me, so my will was not spiritually engaged to remain steadfast in those things that were needful.

Thus, from this point forward I will no longer operate in this space, because I only desire to be where God is able to meet me. Now, this is not to imply that other believers shouldn’t. It’s just that for me…I am not created to be here. My purpose is not here, because my God is not meeting me here. It’s been fun, enlightening and exciting, but ineffectual in adding real value to my life.

So, this is Helen Jones’s 2nd Son saying, Life Is Too Short To Play Games, So Keep It Real. Two Fingers To The North…I’m Out! 💣💥

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2 thoughts on “Do I Belong In This Space?”

  1. God bless you Julia! I think you know me well enough to understand that for me to make this decision, it had to be a God thing! I am now coming into a place where pleasing God and being with Him is my only hope and desire. Anything else that comes with that, I gladly recieve, but they are all by-products. Thank you for your comment.

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